“Every human has four endowments- self-awareness, conscience, independent will and creative imagination. These give us the ultimate human freedom… The power to choose, to respond, to change.”
~ Stephen R. Covey
Today I was thinking about growing up. I just turned 50 and it seems like it is time I start acting like a “grown up”. I have found that I have fallen into my old patterns of behavior, back into the abyss of dysfunction. I woke up and realized I was stuck because I was at such a low vibration. I was riddled with guilt, shame and embarrassment. On the David Hawkins’ scale of vibrations that is a low as you can vibrate.
How could I be here again? I wrote the book on living an empowered, enlightened and loving life. I know better. I was living my highest life. I was actually there; I am still that woman who wrote that book. Everything I wrote was truth when I wrote it. I just need to get back to living it. I’ve proven I am capable of it, it is the true me. I just need to let go of the ego that was pulling me down. As Wayne Dyer says, “the ego stands for Edging God Out”. All the junk life has thrown at me that I let take me off my spiritual path. I can choose to start to live differently today. I am not defined by my past even if my past was yesterday. Each day is a clean slate. “Every time you are tempted to react in the same old way, ask if you want to be a prisoner of your past or a pioneer of the future.” ~ Deepak Chopra
The last year I have been so sick I just shut down. I have been living unconsciously. I choose to live a conscious, present and aware life. As Jim Rohn says, “Change happens instantaneously, it is the decision to change that takes forever.” The great thing is today is a new day. I choose to change. Done.
I got up tapped on my feelings and let go of all the negative energy and started to re-frame. First of all I am letting go of this “grown up” thing. I am instead choosing to be the empowered woman that I am, living my authentic life fully conscious, and making aware deliberate choices from my highest self that create my best life. I am raising my vibration.
I did two guided meditations that I love and had a couple of epiphanies. First, I have been dealing with conflicts with two people in my life. I realized that the things that I have hated in them are just reflections of the parts of me that need to change the most.
The Universe will put people in our lives to mirror the things in ourselves we need to learn. Often they are magnified versions so we can see how ugly that quality is, and then if we look within and recognize how we too possess that quality and become aware, convicted and then we can change. We will keep attracting the same people to ourselves until we get it. Learn the lesson and you will attract different people.
I started to see a list of things that I was judging and complaining about that were there looking right back at me in the mirror (including judging and complaining). I decided it was time to take the plank out of my own eye and heal myself.
Second, I realized that I already have everything I need to accomplish what I want to do. I just need to take conscious action one step at a time. I need to stay connected to God because without being plugged into the source of all power I am powerless and with him there is nothing that I cannot do. I need to stay awake.
Look at the people in your life who bug you, what about them bothers you. Ask yourself and others the hard questions, how is that in you? How are they mirroring back what you need to change? Then make a decision and change.
Maria Elena Escobar